The emptiness leaves a mark

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 15:01:22 GMT

Whores dont trip they bleed at the bar.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 00:20:22 GMT

Its been almost forever since ive updated my livejournal. Well today was mine and crystals one year. Shes amazing and im afraid to see the person i would be if i never met her. I cant even imagine living without her. This has been a great year. So many good things. Im not in a band anymore and i cant say that i dont miss it. ilovedit. Ryan's gone. Its sad Ryan wasnt understood by a lot of people. but before he went away and all that shit went down me and him were starting to be good friends and the weird thing is i was with him the day everything happened. its like i saw the last real piece of ryan.

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 23:13:40 GMT

"Nearly 490,000 Americans will die this year from illnesses related to alochol. But Marijuana is no killer in fact medical evidence indicates that many foods we commonly consume pose a greater danger to human health than marijuana, still it remains illegal. consuming over 5 billion dollars of our tax dollars for law enforcement each year but if regulated marijuana sales would generate 10 billion to 15 billion dollars in annual tax revenue"

I came upon this in a book i am reading and find it to be very true.

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 14:04:12 GMT

my girl, my girl dont lie to me
tell me where did you sleep last night?
in the pines, in the pines
where the sun dont ever shine
id shiver the whole night through
my girl, my girl where will you go
im goin where the cold wind blows
in the pines, in the pines,
where the sun dont ever shine
i would shiver the whole night through

PoP PuNk

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 14:26:50 GMT

March 31st The Underground St.timothys Dundalk Avenue
Were playing with Aircraft Down And Plague of Shadows
Be there
<3

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 13:52:14 GMT

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me
For I must be traveling on now
There's too many places I've got to see

If I stay here with you girl
Things just couldn't be the same
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now
And this bird you cannot change

Oh, and the bird you cannot change
And this bird you cannot change
Lord knows I can't change

Bye-bye babe, it's been sweet, love
'Though this feeling I can't change
But please don't take this so badly
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame

But if I stay here with you girl
Things just couldn't be the same
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now
And this bird you cannot change

Oh, and the bird you cannot change
And this bird you cannot change
Lord knows I can't change
Lord help me I can't change

Oh No, I can't change

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 03:01:38 GMT

I can honestly say this is the happiest i have ever been

I have a wonderful beautiful girlfriend who makes my heart skip a beat

i love our band

i love my friends and my sister

life has been great these last 3 months<33

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 12:19:43 GMT

waking up and getting buy one get one free 27's just makes a good start to my day.

dundalk.

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 18:55:36 GMT

So its sunday. Had a really good weekend.

Friday went to school seemed like it dragged by but eh schools alright i guess. After school crystal and chris malecki came over then jared stopped by we all got crunk except malecki then we went to pick tj and scott up stopped and got some mikes hard came back to the house got more crunk. went to the pier saw heather and rat for a bit. I love my friends there fucking blaze.Saturday crystal came over we sat around and get crunk for a bit went to dundalk music so i could get a new a string. Came home Rat tony and heather came and got us we went to randys house because we got in a little accident and something happened to rats car chilled in his basement for a bit then his grandfather took us home went to dennys with jared and jessi i was totally broke so jrad bought us some seasoned fries i love that mutha fucka. We came back heather and her friend brian picked us up and we went to tonys for a bit came home and crystal stayed the night. She is amazing<3333

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 12:26:46 GMT

Lifes been good latley. Lots of being fucked up going on awsome timessss. I've been chilling with my beatiful crystal, tony, chris, randy, chris g and the band latley good times. Heres some pics of last weekend.

everyone in the field getting trashed

jessi and tony i love them both<333

she makes my heart warm<333

JOE MUTHA FUCKIN NODONOLY I LOVE THAT BITCH

Chris Malecki so fucked up

lolol joe and allison. shes so fucked up in that pic

me crystal joey and jessi

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 10:45:30 GMT

okay heres the deal. Its 6:45. Ive been up since 5:45 and i was thinking fuck this "scene" shit its all about Pop Punk. Pop Punk has played a part in everyones life whether you like or not. Pop Punk forever and always.

Pop Punks what its about

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 15:20:21 GMT

"After An Afternoon"

I bare my windowed self untamed and untrained
Dreams that hardly touch our complexions truest faults
If room enough for both my drowsy spirit shall fall
Bold waves tumble oh to the season of my heart
And you have offended my faith and my trust
Until all is lost into the beauty of the day
Until all is lost, until all is lost

But there's something in the way you laugh
And it makes me feel like a child
Aspects of life they confuse me
You and your thesis amuse me
Oh, after and afternoon with you
And your rich brown eyes
Your lips and dark hair
Elbows and exposed knees tossing toward the ceiling
After an after, after an after, after an afternoon
After an after, after an afternoon with you

Face to palm
Tear to tear
Mouth to tongue
Heart to ground
Heart to ground
Heart to ground
I am in love...</3

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 11:35:41 GMT

I wish I didn't have to go to fucking school today. Im to tired. My birthday is next wed. the year flew by. The Starting Line and Further Seems Forever 17th of Febuary I can't wait for that. Its gonna be a good show.

"Spoon out my heart..."

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 23:55:10 GMT

Its been ages since the last time I updated. Things been going well. Schools alright. I never really liked it much. Next year im going to SPHS i basically already have the special transfer slip. Me and Chris are bestfriends again. I really can't picture us not being bestfriends. Hes always been there for me and i've always been there for him. I miss some people from OLH....Kelly and Brady. I was thinking how busy i would be if i went to curley it was like atleast 2 or 3 hours of homework a night there. Its odd my grandmother died like 5 or 6 years ago and I've been missing her latley she was such a great person. Thanksgiving is coming up soon. I really havnt had a bad thanksgiving.

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 15:44:03 GMT

I'm at the library with Joe and Steph. Were having fun. Didn't go to school today. We were pimping. Tonight I'm supposed to go out with Tony, John, and Jared. Should be fun. I'm really tired at this moment. I'll update more tomorrow. <3.

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 01:22:28 GMT

Schools been alright. I think Im going to Sparrows Point next year not sure yet. I've been sleeping a lot latley. Amanda's sick. I hope she gets better soon. I just realized that Im really plain. Everyone has a little thing like a sport, video games, skateboarding or something like that. I don't have a thing. All I have is music/guitar. I sometimes think and regret not ever doing anything. I guess thats okay though. Maybe im not meant to have a thing or whatever. Im happy with that though.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 06:27:57 GMT

Summer is over....

Tonight was like my last day of summer. Im going to Dundalk. My parents finally gave in. I went to the Curley retreat and it was horrible. I feel bad though my parents didn't get all the tution money back. Last night I went to the mall with Amanda,Chris,Kelly,Steve,Courtney,And Josh. Saw Joe and Quinn There. Thanks for the ride Steph. Got the new Mraz Album. Today I hung out with Chris and Amanda. Chris is my bestfriend I love hanging out with him. We always seem to have fun. We had fun with a snapple cap. We all just hung out it was fun. Chris left at 10. Jared and Jessi asked us to take a ride. It was nice. I jumped in someones pool. I was freezing. When im with Amanda no matter what we do im always happy. Im planing to visit Hope a few times this year. I heard a few of the teachers left and Mr.S is teaching 7th grade. I love my friends. I dont have many but the ones i have are great.

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 02:34:21 GMT

You make me so happy....

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 23:00:14 GMT

Wed.
I woke up around 11. Called Amanda so she would wake up. Then I went to the mall with my mom to get a new suit jacket for the orienation. When I got back I hung out with Amanda. Shes so blaze. Then around 5 came back and changed. Then went to get Chris to go to Tabitiha's party. I had fun just talking to everyone again. I couldn't get to sleep last night. I started to feel like I was getting sick.

Today
I had to get up pretty early. I had an orientation at curley. I only got like 3 hours of sleep last night. It wasn't the best of things. I tried to make the best of it though. When I got there i had to go to the student dining room and hear the president of Curley talk about the year and about detentions and demrits. They give detentions for the stupidest reasons. And you can also get expelled if your late more then 15 times. You can't wear dress shoes that have the like the creases/waffle things on the bottom of them. I don't understand that. Who is going to look at the bottom of your shoes. I had to get my student id picture taken. The line was forever long. Then I had to get my books. I took them to my locker on the third floor and put them in. But i didn't know how to use my lock. I started to get pissed so I didn't even lock them in my locker. They said once we were done with our books we could just leave. So I left and my mom jessi and jared came to get me. I told them about the whole locker thing and jared showed me how to do it. Im really going to try to make the best of Curley...its only a year. Saturday is Maria's party and then afterwards hopefully I'll go the uptown stomp show. I think Im starting to get sick...i hope not.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 02:01:39 GMT

1) Using band names, spell out your name:
T-Taking Back Sunday
I-Interpool
M-My Chemical Romance
O-Oasis
T-The Early November
H-Hometown Hero
Y-Yellowcard

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
Nope.

3) What song makes you cry? Several.

4) What song makes you happy? Remember To Breathe

x. HEIGHT: 5'7
x. HAIR COLOR: Brown

x. EYE COLOR: Mix
x. PIERCINGS: None
x. TATTOOS: none

r i g h t n o w

x. WHAT YOU WEARING?: Boxers and a white t shirt

x. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: The Realist- Posion the Well

x. WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: No taste

x. WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Dark out

x. HOW ARE YOU?: Tired

x. GET MOTION SICKNESS?: No

x. HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Cracking my knuckles (Im trying to stop)

x. GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Half of the time

x. LIKE TO DRIVE?: Don't drive

x. BOYFRIEND?: Nope

x. GIRLFRIEND?: Yes

x. SEXUALITY?: straight.

x. CHILDREN?:None

x. HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE?:Yes

x. BEEN HURT?:yes...

x. YOUR GREATEST REGRET?:dont know..

x. YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW?:Mixed cd

x. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON what color would you be?:Green

x. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?:Friends, Amanda, guitar, and music

x. WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: New Jason Mraz Live cd

Seven things in your room:
Tv, Dresser, Handicapped parking sign, Bed, Cds, Cd player, Bass guitar amp

Seven things to do before death:
1.Grow my bangs past my nose
2.learn to drive
3.Move out of Maryland
4.Be in a band
5.Meet Jason Mraz
6.Meet Adam Lazarra
7.Go to college

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1.Short girls
2.Honesty
3.Eyes
4.Nice Hair
5.Nice smile
6.Kindness
7.Happiness

Top seven things you say most:
1.Blaze
2.cool
3.Str8
4.Yes
5.No
6.Okay
7.Yea

Do You:

Smoke?:Nope
Do drugs?:No
Read the newspaper?:Sometimes
Pray?: Try to everynight

Have you ever:

Been in love?:No
Gone skinny dipping?:No
Had a medical emergency?:Not really
Had surgery?:No
Swam in the dark?:Yes
Been to a Bonfire:Yes
Got Drunk:Yes
Ran away from home?:No
Played strip poker?:No
Gotten beaten up?:No
Beaten someone up?:No
Been on stage?:Yes.
Slept outdoors?:Yes and there was lots of rain
Pulled an all nighter?:Yes
If yes, what is your record? 3 the next day
Made out with a stranger?:I wouldn't say stranger
Been on radio/tv?:No
Been in a mosh-pit?:No
Gotten lost in the woods:No
Smoked a Cigar:No
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:Yes
Describe your first kiss?:What kind of kiss?

About You

Three words that sum you up:Big eyes, Brown Hair, Thin

Shoes: Chucks

Cologne/Perfume/Deorderant: Axe

In the last 24 Hours have you....:
Cried:No
Bought something:Yes
Gotten sick:No
Sang:yes
Been kissed:Yes
Felt stupid: yes
Wanted to tell someone you love them, but didn’t:No
Talked to an ex:Yes
Had a serious talk:No
Missed someone: yes
Hugged someone: yes
Argued with a parent(s):Not today

Social Life:

Boyfriend/girlfriend: Yes <3<3
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: I like dates where friends come to
Job: nope
Attend Church:no
Like being around people:Most of the time but i like to be alone sometimes to

Last:

Thing you ate:Steak
Thing you drank:Milk
Place you went:Wendys
Person you kissed:Amanda <3
Person you hugged:Dad
Person you talked to:Mom
Person you IMed:Krock
Song you heard:Cheap trick- I want you to want me

Currents:

Current Mood: Tired
Current Hair:Normal
Current DVD In Player: Phucked dvd

Current Worry:Summe reading
Are you artistic:With music.
Are you athletic:Nope
Are you a brat:no
Do you like spiders:They don't bother me
Can you do anything freakish with your body?:No
What are you listening to: Poison the well
If you could be anywhere, where would you be?:Not sure
Makeup or natural look?:Natural

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 16:49:27 GMT

School starts in about 13 days. I really don't want to go to Curley. Its only a year so I'm hoping it won't be to bad. Thursday I have a freshman orientation. I gotta wake up early for that. The on the 23rd-24th I have an overnight retreat at Curley. It wasn't very hot this summer. The New Jason Mraz live album/DVD comes out August 24th. I really can't wait to get it. I love his music.

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 02:20:40 GMT

One word to describe tonight. Blaze.<3.

"My Heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury"

"My heart is your to fill or burst to break or bury"

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 03:41:03 GMT

Things are going good right now. Im really happy. I don't have tons of friends but the friends that I do have are great. Chris and myself have been talking about writing/playing some songs with like an acoustic guitar/keyboard nothing serious just for fun. It sounds like fun. I find it so great being with someone who makes me very happy <3. I've noticed something these last few weeks I havn't been putting myself down as much as I used to and Im starting to higher my self esteem and I want to thank Amanda for that.

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 16:06:59 GMT

Got back from the ocean yesterday. I had a very good time. I really missed Amanda, Kelly, and Chris when I was down there though. Yesterday when I got back I went over Amanda's house we were supposed to walk up to Dundalk Music Center to get Christopher. But she didn't feel like walking so Amanda's mom drove us up to get him. When we got back Me, Chris, Amanda and Rachel went fishing with Amanda's little brother Mike. We were supposed to walk up to highs to get food. But instead Ashley drove us to burgar king. Shes blaze. School starts August 30th. I have to go for an orientation on the 18th or 19th. Then I have to go for an overnight retreat...I really don't feel like doing all of that during my last few weeks of summer...

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 16:54:48 GMT

LEAVE COMMENTS WHILE IM GONE.

Im leaving for the beach today. I'll be back next saturday. Please leave comments.